Plan for this Week

Hello all!

Well, C2E2 was a blast. I got to hang out with a lot of really good friends. The panel went okay, though I wasn’t exactly … pleased that another panelist on the panel basically put me in a position where I was forced to reveal I have a learning disability. There’s really no excuse for that.

However, meeting and talking to so many wonderful asexual identifying artists more than made up for that small bit of unpleasantness. I really can’t say this enough: I love meeting and talking with asexual artists. All of you are so wonderful and generous with your time and I love hearing you talk about your projects 😀

I hope some of the artists who attended the panel contact me because I want to feature you on this site and share your awesomeness with all the other aces out there.

Okay, so as fun as the convention was, it was also exhausting. I’m completely worn out, people. I need today to recharge my batteries so to speak. My apologies.

Later tonight, I’m going to write up a small signal boost for Kai, who could really use some support at the moment (if you’re so inclined, please visit his YouCaring page and donate if you can: https://www.youcaring.com/kaicollart-1160920). That post will go up tomorrow.

I have no interviews scheduled, so I’ll post another call for interviews on Wednesday.

The Kindle eBooks of my first two novels are still on sale through today (Sere from the Green & Through Storm and Night)

Thanks, everybody! 🙂

Small Signal Boost

Hi everyone!

I have another personal signal boost (which is also a kind of a site update). In the past, I’ve had some people express interest in supporting the work I do on Asexual Artists. I have been researching ways for people to do so, off and on. Patreon kind of goes over my head, so I was looking into alternatives. Ko-Fi seems to best option for me at the moment.

So yesterday I started a Ko-Fi page: https://ko-fi.com/laurenjankowski

I also posted a link with all the others in the links section on this site as well as with my own links in the Writers section.

I know money is super tight at the moment, so please don’t feel obligated. I won’t ever stop running this site or advocating for asexual artists.

Any small amount you can give is greatly, greatly appreciated. Really, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.


In other news, I’m going to be starting a monthly newsletter. Something I’ve been neglecting for far too long. The first newsletter is going to be going out at the end of the month. It’s going to take me a bit to get into a rhythm (I’m terrified of doing this). The newsletter is just going to be writing news and I’ll probably give a shout-out to other ace authors every now and again.

Anyhow, I don’t really have a lot of subscribers at the moment, so if you’re interested in receiving updates on me and my writing, please sign up for the newsletter on my personal website: https://laurenjankowski.com/

Thanks, everybody! 🙂

A Few Odds and Ends

Hello all.

This is just a couple odds and ends, random bits of news.

Apology for Last Week

I know I didn’t post last week and I wanted to offer a sincere apology for that. The past few months . . . they’ve been incredibly rough. I wanted to give a brief explanation, because there’s a chance that I might need a day or week off every now and again in the future.

I have Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), have had it all my life. Because of this, I wasn’t allowed to learn another language in school. Neurotypical students were given the option to take another language in middle school, while students with diagnosed learning disabilities were put in study hall. From a young age, I was fascinated with language and not being allowed to learn a second language was not only humiliating, it was heartbreaking.

I tried to learn Greek when I was earning my degree and was absolutely terrible at it, but good heavens, was it fun! I sucked at it, but I was allowed to learn it and that’s all I wanted. Had I be given a few more years, I probably would have been halfway decent. Unfortunately, I was only able to take a year of it before I graduated.

Recently, I decided to learn ASL. I really want to learn another language, being fluent in at least two languages is a dream of mine. I signed up at my local community college, having forgotten some past experiences I had at the place (which should have left permanent red flags). I passed ASL I and II. In January, I started ASL III.

I really don’t want to go into detail about what happened, it’s still really painful to remember, but from January until April, I was regularly subjected to ableist abuse from the students in the class, including being shamed for having a learning disability. It got so terrible that I wound up having to medically withdraw from the course (as well as another one I was taking). I realized that I would have rather been dead than in that class and wound up having a panic attack that almost landed me in the hospital. All because I wanted to learn a language.

I wound up lodging a complaint with the college. I am currently in the process of trying to get a refund for the course, which looks likely to happen (based on the sheer amount of fuck ups that happened). I have been assured that this sort of situation will never happen again.

Since April, I’ve been recovering from the experience (and the subsequent anxiety that it triggered. Oh and all the brand new triggers, which is just so much fun [sarcasm]). Some days, I wake up and my entire body feels like an exposed nerve and everything hurts and it just reminds me of that damn class. I’m still trying to get back to a place of confidence, back to my badass self, but it’s difficult. Some days are better than others. Some days are still a struggle. Keeping up this site helps a lot (as it did when I was going through the worst of that experience). Seeing friends also helps. I had lunch with the phenomenal H-P Lehkonen in April (though I fear I was quite out of it at the time). I went to WisCon in Madison with my dear friend, Leigh, in May where I met a couple followers of this blog (it was lovely seeing you 🙂 ) and had dinner with a bunch of aces. In July, I went to Indy PopCon in Indianapolis, where I saw Hallopino, who I interviewed for this site a while back, met a whole bunch of aces, and got to hang out with my bestie (we went to see Wonder Woman! It was awesome!). I also got to see my bestie again a couple weeks later for her birthday.

Anyhow, I wanted to apologize because I feel like I’m letting the followers of this blog down. Some of you have written really lovely messages that I haven’t been able to respond to because of all the shit I’ve been dealing with relating to this f’ing class. I am so sorry. Please know that your kind words were very appreciated when I was in a really bad place (I am so grateful to all of you). And then I just completely burned out last week and couldn’t upload the four interviews I had waiting in my inbox. I am very sorry. You guys deserve better. I am really, really trying. I really am. I promise that if I ever burn out again, I’ll post a short post to let you know that’s the case.

Thanks for your patience.

Happy Exciting News! 😀

While all the shit with that class was happening, I was still hard at work on the reboot of my series. Unfortunately, the severe anxiety and panic attacks meant I had to push back the release date. It was supposed to happen in August, but I’m lucky enough to have great friends who tell me to take care of myself first (I probably would have had a complete breakdown had I tried to release the series in August).

BUT! That means I get to re-release my series on my favorite day of the year: Halloween! YAY!

My wonderful friend and fellow ace author, Lyssa Chiavari, has been helping me set up everything in anticipation of the book’s release. You guys, the first two pages are live!

Sere from the Green
Through Storm and Night

I know some of you have already read the previous versions and I hope you’ll give the series another chance, now that it has been professionally edited (and beta read by another dear friend, Taia Hartman). These are the books I wanted to write, told in my voice. I poured everything into these books and I’m really happy with the result. I’m so grateful to Snowy Wings Publishing for giving me this wonderful opportunity. It feels like a dream.

I have to warn you that September and October are going to be ridiculously as I continue to prepare for this re-release. So there might be a couple days I go M.I.A. It’s super important to me that I get this right. Thank you in advance for your understanding 🙂

I’ll probably post a reminder closer to the release date, which I hope followers won’t mind.

Upcoming Birthday

As some followers of this site are aware, my birthday is September 27th. As usual, I’m requesting you find some way to support asexual identifying artists (either by supporting their work or by offering them some kind words).

However, I have a teeny request: my fundraiser for the trip to Baltimore is still going on. I really need to raise the funds for this trip (still need a little less than $200 to reach my goal). Anything you could spare would be greatly appreciated: https://www.youcaring.com/laurenjankowski-878223

I’m terrible at fundraisers (and it has been hard to focus on this with all the other stuff going on). I cannot reiterate that enough: I am so bad at promoting myself. But I really want to do this. I know that I could really contribute to this panel and I want this experience.


Anyhow, that’s about it.

OH! Please keep those interview requests coming. I only have four scheduled for next week.

Thanks, everyone! 🙂 ❤

Sorry for the Delay

Hello all.

I’m not going to sugarcoat this and I apologize for any rambling. I fear I’m still in a state of shock.

Last night, my country, the United States, voted fascists into power. To say I’m devastated is a massive understatement. It’s more than that however: as I’ve stated on my other social media accounts, this is likely the excuse my Dad’s side of the family (the queerphobic/acephobic side who have threatened me before) has been waiting for. Needless to say, I don’t hold out any illusions about surviving through Trump/Pence. Oh, I will fight like hell and I will protect those who are even more at risk. But I’m also a realist.

I’m going to keep this site running, obviously, and I have two interviews to upload and schedule. I wanted to have one posted today, but I fear that I desperately need to take a mental health day. I beg your forgiveness and understanding.

Thank you so much for your patience. Remember, the sun will always rise and some things will always be worth fighting for. I will fight for ace artists as long as there is breath in my body.

Hopefully the next interview will be up on Thursday (Monday at the latest).